Thonau's diary

This diary is made for my lovely honey, thonau. I hope you like it!

Thursday, January 20, 2005


I spent the whole evening reading some articles on Vietnamnet. It's not because I have nothing to do, just because the RA application was so boring and I merely started the second question when I decided to gvie up. But that's not a bad thing, since reading those articles made me think, and think seriously, about life.

Sometimes you live, and get bored, and stress, and don't want to live anymore. But there will be times when death is so close that you can never tell. I am not trying to be pessimistic, but any of us, one day or another, sooner or later, will realize that we have wasted our life and often when we realize the value of happiness we are having, it's already too late. People said the youngers now have a habit of complaining and whining when life does not have any thing considerable to be complaint about. That's such a common sense that if one day, you open your mouth and says " I am so happy and my life is wonderful", people will turn around and look at you like you are a monster, or UFO of some kind. It may be a way to get sympathized, or a way to relieve stress, or a way to be humble. Or may be by telling how terrible everything is to you, you will not be as shocked when a horrible thing happens, or be happier when a lucky star comes. However, no matter what the reason is, just take a look to the world outside, and you should stop complaining.

Two brother and sister end up being orphans when daddy was killed just three years after their mother died. But their grandma is too old and weak and their uncles and aunts are so poor that nobody can take care of them. A 70 year old women, who is a granddaughter of a former famous leader in the war, is taking care of her two mentally retarded sons, and keeps wondering everyday how they are gonna live when she dies. A mother of ten was surviving seven other villagers in the flood, never will come back with her children, the smallest was not even a year old.

There are so many lives out there that are not as lucky as ours. Well, you can tell me that everywhere there's happiness and sadness, lucky and unlucky people. But just value your life right, and live as energetic and enthusiatic as one could be. And do as much as you can for yourself and your society before it's too late. And don't live in your self-built prison whining and feeling bored since so many needs out there are waiting for you. And live yourself a life that when you die, you feel you do not miss anything.